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26 November 2013 @ 03:28 pm
And my fear suddently knocks in my door...  
When I though it was something that will take a bit more time it sudden drop into me just a moment ago…After 2 years of a bad mood in my house between my mom and stepfather it all came to an end. My stepfather while bringing me to school this afternoon finally said he can’t get the situation anymore and he will start in thinking to get out and now me, my young sister and mom need to proceed our lives without him. I can’t say I’m happy or sad about the situation, it suddenly come like a bomb and now I don’t really know what to do. I’d a life style for over 3 years or so around and now it’s changing all over and I don’t know what to do since I get stuff and now everything will change… when I though I would get a root it was a fragile one. I will need to see what will come in the end but I know a no good outcome will be the end and I don’t wanna it to happen. Even though my stepfather said I will always be like a daughter to him and I supported him the most even the situation… I know nothing will be the same as it has.
I will miss it and now I’m a bit depressed over it I know it will pass since after all I think I’m emotionless and no one can kill my heart unless I’m the one to do it. Quite stupid I know, but even if I’ve a deep pain in my useless heart it will pass and soon it will all be in the past. Since it always happen when I’m left by others.
Thanks for listen/read my comment.
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xhokahokaxxhokahokax on November 26th, 2013 05:25 pm (UTC)
It's just I don't know, just a bit i was arguing with my mom because I think my stepfather is an awesome person even with his defects, my mom just doesn't see it or if she see she doesn't care at all after all this time... and I can't say something... or more I can't agree with the situation because I know all this because of other people gossips. I just don't think it's fair for both.
I'm jobless, I'm no help to my mom now since she doesn't work as well and I don't know what I will do now to support our lives, me, mom and young sister.
But what I hate the most too is that my mom is now planning stuff ahead without my consent in the end... damn I do have an opinion... if she doesn't want my opinion then I'm better off her life.
Taihen!: Reborn!chinpirako on November 26th, 2013 05:50 pm (UTC)
It's really a pity they can't get along anymore... :(

I'm concerned about your situation, because I understand how hard it is to find a job in this crisis :(((((
xhokahokaxxhokahokax on November 26th, 2013 05:55 pm (UTC)
Yes and this is what makes me feel insecure actually, not the all bullshit about feelings... >.<
I'm in a dead pinch now... fuck this, fuck the current me...